How do I love thee let me count the ways

I spoke to my husband about how I felt when a friend gave me these very endearing glances, it was daunting as I expected a huge jealous drama would ensue but he acknowledged my wanting some affections. And I told him that I wanted that from him and not from anyone else. He promised to be more expressive with his affections. I told him I want flowers, I want a slow walk hand-in hand where-ever, by the beach preferably. I want to watch the sun set with him. I want him to be around when I have performances.. He can't promise to grant most of these requests but he promised to do his best.

We are planning to conceive our second child, but I think it would be too late now if my Cabaret performance were to fall on November 2010. I need to be fit at least 4 months before November. So I think the best time to conceive is next year November! In the meantime let me enjoy being thin and slim for one more year. Sally Bowles will rock Malaysia next year. Yea!

I am also starring in KLpac's new musical Adam. We will be performing on stage in May 2010. This play is about AIDS or what laymen do not understand about the disease. We spoke about it the last time we had the casts meeting. Most of us agree there are alot that we do not know, especially how it is transfered. This will be an interesting journey.

In the meantime I'm working on Kelam...Bu, a play about an incestous father who raped most of his daughters. I'm playing Ogy one of the raped daughter who turns to prostitution. This is my first Malay theater. It will be staged on 17th and 18th December in ASWARA.

What do you call that look?

The look you gave me. Sheepish, inquisitive, attentive, interested... what do you call it? Will you be looking at me the same way again, when I see you in a different setting? Under a different light? Will I miss that look for noone has looked at me that way for the longest of time. I can't remember who the last person too. How do I describe that look... a slight tilt of your head, eyes straight into mine looking for answers. You lowered your gaze a few time, and when I looked away there it was again. It is not so much to know why you gave me the look it is just that how I miss feeling so blessed knowing someone really looked inside.

One small armchair

This afternoon we sat on the same chair. All chairs were taken you offered yours but I declined. I needed to nap coz did't have enough sleep the night before, you made me sit beside you on the same chair. A small armchair made for one shared by two. I had my nap you had your rest too. As I was dozing off I felt you breathing beside me. Short inhales n exhales, warm gentle pressure on my side. I could hear your heart...