What The Hell Was He Thinking!

I wonder what has come over our society these days. Being a muslim community we condone polygamy as we feel we have no right to questions the laws of the religion (we as women). We cannot tell our men to be faithful as it is their birth given right to be unfaithful (if they wish to stray) if they wish to fall in love again with another woman and marry her. We would close one eye if that person is our brother, our uncle, our friend until one day that person is our husbands, we have given up our voices so if one day that happens to us the others will close their eyes on us too. I read something appalling recently in the newspaper. A woman’s husband was caught in the state of Khalwat with another woman and the latter’s father made a press statement that he willingly accept this man (who is still married) as his son-in-law. All this said without considering the man’s wife and children’s feelings. Well hey, this is the time of survival of the fittest, or should I say survival of the prettiest, or youngest, or sexiest or what-ever-est. We love any man who has sexual urges and we don’t give a damn about whether or not he has a family of his own. What do we care? Only our own blood! As long as my daughter is happy, why must I care about his wife and children? His wife and kids are his concern and not mine, he said. I only want my daughter to be happy, (so she must get whatever she wants?) How convenient for a loving father to say such things unless of course the table turns. I’m sure he has a lot to say if his daughter is the wife whose husband is caught berkhalwat. But in retrospection, how did we get to this point? How do we as a society become so insensitive to women and children?

The children have lost their daddy because he wants to get into another woman’s pants, and he could say I have no comment about them? What kind of a person is this guy? I wish that one day he will be brought to look into their eyes and say those words again. I wish that he will see them knowing they are no longer important in their daddy’s life. I wish that he will witness all the pain he has somehow allowed to happen. I wish one day he will see. That is when I hope that he would be speechless enough to even mouth the words I HAVE NO COMMENT!

I dedicate this entry to Abdul Aziz Muhammad! And to those around him who closed their eyes on our mother.

Kurang Manis

VENUE: The Actor Studio Bangsar SHopping Centre
COMMENCE: 30th Oct 8.30pm
ENDS: 2nd Nov

For the 1st time in my life I get to work with The Instant Cafe Theater (ICT)YEEEYYYY!!! The casts are crazy and fun. We work like mad every day fucking our brains with new materials. The show will be staged in less than a week and I m still wrecking my brains memorizing songs and dialogues. I love every damn minute.

I get to work with people who just love to work. Hehehe.... They have been performing for ages and man I feel so humbled especially by the talented young ones like Haziril Adzim, Ayam and Amerul. I also get to work with Azrul from Cham (Raja Lawak), an old acquantance from Audition. Everyone is a sweetheart. I found a friend in Maya Tan Abdullah, a beautiful mother of two.

I am so happy to be working again with Jo Kukathas who directed M!The Opera, my first musical. She is such a loving person, I just adore her.

The show will have a few skits and about 12 songs in between. I will be singing a few numbers with the others. I'm not sure if I will sing a solo song coz I still can't memorize the Immigration song. My favourite song will be Dial-A-Bomoh mocking people who see bomohs for every problem they have. My least fave is Mahathir coz we will hantam the ex-PM... Aiyah feel so bad, even though I kinda marah at him for the shitty leaders he trained now sitting in the cabinet.

The best thing in this show is that there are no Divas in the casts. Ermmm... I kinda expect to see at least one as they are all very experienced people, but thankfully I was wrong to assume I'd meet one. They have all been so kind to me, I am just glad to be a part of such amazing talents. Let's face it I'm a newbie at theatrical shows. Budak bodo... u know.

I now have a soft spot for Ayam and I thought he was not a nice person. He was such a rowdy fellow during DanSing Thru Broadway and when I met him again I found out he is so sweet. We somehow cannot point out how we couldn't be friends during DanSing. He said I was sombong, I said HE didn't give me a chance. Well there was some misunderstanding of each others' energy and behaviour. But now I heart AYAM... Hehehe

The best part in working in this show is that we rehearse in Taman Tun juz beside Pesona Pictures where my husband works. I get to drop by to give him a kiss whenever I want. I heart I heart!!

Mamma Mia!

I finally got to watch the movie Mamma Mia starring Meryl Streep, Pierce Brosnan and Colin Firth. Had the best time singing along to the Abba songs and tapping my foot to the rhythm. Really had a blast just immersing myself in such joy and love being poured out by the performers. My girlfriend who watched the show with me said how she wanted to party like that. I think that we must party like that without always being in fear of what other people might say. That's the real problem with the Malay folks - we just can't get enough of judging ourselves. What's worse is that we wear a religious hat while we're at it. I guess anything fun and liberating such as singing, dancing or just expressing oneself in total freedom will be considered unislamic... Remember Faizal Tahir and his chest bearing incident? Well the people who banned him must have forgotten that a male's physical aurat is only between his navel and knee. So chest in not included in the aurat.

I watched my son who now loves to "jalan-jalan" ran around the busy shopping mall one night just laughing his head off just for the fun of it. He was having so much fun making fun of himself and teasing me and his daddy at the same time. It gave me pleasure just watching him being happy. A real simple activity to just be. I just wish we have more of that sort of moments as both my husband and I are pretty busy people.

Speaking of being busy, I recently have been casted in a show called Kurang Manis for the Instant Cafe Theater. We will be making jokes about the current social and political situations. While we are workshoping, I realise how glad I am to be me. I have been so thankful of everything sometimes I couldn't be bothered with the news or that Pak Lah is finally stepping down. I know that I have to be concerned but I try not to put too much of my energy in contemplating about the future of the country. I have my fears of course. I fear if my son and his future sibling(s) will not have proper education. I fear if I won't be free in my own country. THere I have said it... Now it is in print and it is out to the universe. These are negative energies that are self-defeating. They just feed on your optimism. I don't want to pay too much attention on fears. I know I must be viable enough for my children to get education in the future. I'm glad Pak Lah knows where he stands and decides to step down. But I'm not happy that the leading party is divided. I am not happy that a leech like Anwar Ibrahim is sucking on naive minds to gain power. I do know he will lead temporarily and the people will realise his true colour. But will it be too late? As we get to that point, will the current leaders create more problems? I know a lot of people miss Dr.M for his wisdom and intelligence, but he created the whole drama in the first place. I have no love for any politicians but I want to be free here in this land. If someday I find myself and my family in a state where we can't run around and laugh our heads off just for the fun of laughing, that will be the day that we will decide that this is no longer our home.

We will migrate to Greece and live like the characters in MammaMia! Bye bye Malaysia.

DanSing Thru Broadway

I just can't get enough of the rush before going on stage. I know i was a dead cow during rehearsals and how the director and the choreographer (namely Sabrina Hassan and Farah Sulaiman, the people I adore very much) have doubts about how I would perform but I think I managed to make them smile in the end :)

I sang the opening Sunday Clothes from Hello Dolly! and my second song is my solo My Strongest Suit from Aida. The second song was a bit tricky cause I had to change into a dress mid song. Later I made a few 'cameo' appearances for Dorren Tang's solo I Could Have Danced All Night from My Fair Lady, Peter Ong and Nicole-Ann Thomas' duet Mooning from Grease, later I Hope I get It and the finale One.

It was a loving production, so we miss each other very much now that the production has ended. I'm having a post-production blues and I am facebooking and messaging the casts almost everyday. *sigh*

More updates coming up...